A Little Bit Dark...

So, Dearest Blog. It has been a very long time. I have sort of neglected you. But I have sort of been neglecting myself as well. I have a pretty big "To Do" list going on and I am honestly feeling very overwhelmed. I have been pushing through everything in the apartment and I want to purge it of as many things as I can. It's a small space and some of these things just need to be let go. Then I have this grandeur plan of revamping it once THE PURGE is complete. I want colours in my place, and photos of my kids on the walls, maybe even a bookshelf for my books instead of the cardboard boxes they have been living in since I started my first round of college! Very lofty goals here.

Then poor Esmeralda. She needs a good bit of maintenance before winter gets here. She needs a big fixing in the rear suspension. And new tires. And an oil change, poor thing. I gave her a good washing and vacuuming the other day. I imagined my car acting like a cat into a bucket of water the entire time. She just seems like one to hate being groomed. Now she smells like the "Wild Cherry" carpet freshener they offer at the Bucky's Car Station. Refreshing compared to stale cigarette air and my kids' stinky gym clothes.

All these goals I am planning, I honestly just touched on the two most casual for conversation, are really stressing me out. But I want these things terribly so I keep them on the list. I cannot put it off any longer. It's stressful, and depressing, and makes me want to rip my hair out, but I am sure of myself in accomplishing these things. And I believe the reward will be worth it all.

Plus it costs a great deal of money to execute all of these things. So throw lots of overtime at work on top of this pile. LeSigh.

I feel so very uncreative right now. I feel like a cog in a system going nowhere in the giant picture of my existence. I know my life is a tiny blink of the overall picture of the universe. I accept that long after I die my children will grow and, hopefully, make a family of their own. There will be grandchildren and great grandchildren after me that I will never physically be by in life. I know these thoughts also seem a bit depressing and down but I sort of take it as a reason to make my short time here a bit more brilliant. I want to show my kids a life of love and promise. I want to show my clients at work the same and provide them with the best cares I can by furthering my own knowledge and competency. I may not be remembered one hundred years from now, but I would like to be in these people's memories for as long as I can burn bright. 

Where do I go from cleaning house to making a difference in the world? Lol, I guess I am a bit broody this week?

I took a small break to say "Hello!" but now I must be back to my tasks. And maybe a little Pokemon in between, he he. I have been trying to dominate Black for a while now. It would be pretty neat if I had a few online buddies to play with as well. I'll look into that later on. Hugs!

SUPER HUGE Mii!

So I got my neato Nintendo card in the mail today. Pretty cool, if I do say so myself. I played that dragon shooter game with it as well. THE DRAGON WAS HUUUUGE! Just a little note to say HI, my dear blog. I said I would update you the other day but I am a liar. We both know this, don't be so disappointed. Also had my computer fixed finally today. It died the day after my last blog post. All is well. Time to nap before I start the long work week. Meh. Ignore my messy house. I R Bum.

Slowly Dying...

I rob most of my decoration pictures from Tumblr, I never know the original artist. So sad, I would love to follow the creator of this on dA. ♥

...well, Mr. Blog, that MAY be a bit dramatic. I'm just really sick. But I just seem to not be able to kick this cold  for the past 3 weeks off and on. My tonsils are so swollen and gross looking. They even are touching my uvula! I will spare you the icky details though. Let's just say I have not been this sick in a very long time. Sorry for ignoring you but I just have been loafing around on the big yellow chair and trying to drink hot tea. I have been crocheting more! And when I have made a full recovery I'll share with you all the cute things I made. Go to the doctor this morning, wish me luck!

Breakfast Blogging

I realize that even as I type this the time is almost at noon but I tend to sleep in so I will still say it is breakfast! My breakfast, dear blog, consist of some coffee and toast. But by now you know how much I dislike breakfast foods. I used to love eggs, probably still do, but eggs seem to hate me so very much. </3

Image borrowed from http://jucylucyinspired.deviantart.com/ 
Check her out, HER ART IS SUPER CUTE!!!!!!!!!!

I have been catching up on my NETFLIX instant cue as of late and the newest movie for me to watch is Tangled. It is a cute Disney movie and it had some really humourous moments in it. My favourite? The entire run on joke with the frying pan. It may be because I grew up in that Tom & Jerry era but I found it pretty amusing to see so many people get slapped around with that pan. Rapunzel was one of my favourite stories as a child so I was very excited when this popped up on my screen. Was it the same rehashed corniness that Disney always puts out? Yes. Was the story easily predicted? Of course. Do I care? Not really. I do not really expect amazing twisting plots and ridiculously deep dialogue in these kinds of movies. As a kid I loved the Disney movies and I like that now, as an adult, I can still enjoy them with my kids without having to explain every complicated detail to my FOREVER QUESTIONING six year old. Other Disney movies I really love include The Emporor's New Groove, Fantasia, and Sleeping Beauty. 

Other things I have been watching on Netflix? I just recently finished all the episodes of Bleach they had to offer and I am almost completed with the Inuyasha series. Yeah, weaboo moment for sure. But Inuyasha gets me all nostalgic and I cannot deny myself. ♥ I do notice, now that I am older, the silly antics Kagome and Inuyasha constantly pull on each other seem to be rather childish and immature for what is supposed to be an epic love story kind of thing. Maybe that is just because I am so much more forward with my romance? I digress! 

I have been also watching many, MANY episodes of Paranormal State. OMGWTFBBQ! I love that show! And I love Chip Coffey! And his millions of fabulous scarves! Paranormal shows are my weakness. I, personally believe that the paranormal is totally possible and getting to watch people catch them on tape/camera pulls me right in with that insanity. You can imagine the giddy squeal I terrified The Captain with when I noticed ParaState had added new episodes. I stayed up very late to finish them all, sucking down coffee and absently pretending to crochet as I stared away at the t.v. 

Then there has been NANA. I know, I know. So many animes in this post. Well, the anime section was just recently added to Netflix so I qued up quite a few I have been wanting to watch. I like anime just as much as any other genre but they are so expensive! I cannot justify paying $25-$30 for just 4 episodes. Anyways, NANA is so much more cute than I thought it was going to be. And I just got to the part where SOMEBODY found out she is pregnant! I won't say who though since people seem to hate spoilers. I don't know which one I want to end up with who... *chews on nails*

We recently turned our cable provider off in favour of Netflix since the bill was becoming a bit outrageous. I have not missed television yet, which is a huge relief to me. I get my news from CNN online and my weather from there as well. I really like to watch cooking shows but that is covered over at FoodNetwork.com. So all things are well AND I am saving around $115 a month now. This is too much rambling, Dear Blog. I think I'll be off for now. 

I'm Not Much on Purples...

...but I love this dress. I want it. </3